So here I am.
But seriously, this is so cool, it feels like I'm expecting special guests and I need to make my home pretty to welcome them!
It's been a while since I posted anything on my blog. The truth is, I just can't do it and being able to admit that in itself is a relief and shows that I'm a big girl now!
My mother came to be with me when I was going to have my baby. She took care of me, nursed me and helped me heal. She gave me all the support I needed to become a mother. I don't know how I could have done this without her. I felt that because I had become a mother, I had to give everything else up, but my mother gave me a lot of courage and confidence, she made me believe that I could do anything! And I DID believe that I could do anything! And so, I took the Flying Lessons, had great ideas for my business and also, went back to school full time. My mother has gone back home now, and although I'm still confident, between being a mother, a wife and full time school, I'm a zombie! My son is 7 months old, but he's the size of a one year+ old. I'm exhausted! I can barely stay awake!
I ask myself, why I'm putting myself through all this.....? And then I remember! It's all because of him!
I took the flying lessons because even though I thought I couldn't have children, I always knew in my heart that I would wanted to be a stay at home mom, just as my mother was for me. She was a housewife. But so much has changed. Even though being a mother is my number one role and priority, I know there's so much more in me that has to be brought forth.
Technology is allowing us to have opportunities that our mothers didn't and I owe it to myself, my son, my family and all the women of the world to take full advantage of these opportunities and be the best I can be! We're all in this together!
On the subject of going back to school, even though I used to own a dressmaking business (amongst other things), I never had any formal training, and I didn't know how to sew! (even though I had to sew!) I've always been afraid of sewing! And so, upon arriving here in the USA, and wanting to further my career and my education, I decided to take on an MFA in Fashion Merchandising. I was playing it safe! I was getting easy A's! After the birth of my son, I knew I had to stop playing it safe, stop thinking that I wasn't good enough to be a full fledged Fashion Designer, and so I ditched a year's worth of credits and switched over to the MFA in Fashion Design.
It's hard hard work! I have to stay up all night when my husband can take of our baby, and I have to sew and draw! I'm not getting A's like I used to, but I KNOW I'm doing the right thing!
I'm going to school online, so again, thanks to technology, we CAN have it all, just in smaller doses!
This is one of the reasons why I connected with Kelly Rae so much. By living her life, and sharing, she made me believe that it would be possible to be a full time mom and still run a thriving business, and that's why I took the Flying Lessons.
It's been great, but for now, I just can't do it. I can't fly.
And it's ok. It's not like I've given up, I just have to gently push my business plans aside for now, and still dream and take the tiny steps that I can.
So, for my Facebook family, this is why I haven't been very active in our group. I'm so grateful for those of you who are keeping the dream alive and keeping the community strong, knowing that some of us can fly in and fly out, knowing that the rest of you are soaring! The conversations, the information, the sisterhood has been the BEST part of Flying Lessons! It's been wonderful. The very few times that I'm able to come to the group are when I'm nursing my baby, or when he's asleep in my arms, and the most I can do is to 'like' something, or just type a few words. But just being able to fly by from time to time is encouraging, it makes me believe that it's all possible.
So THANK YOU!
In the spirit of the blog hop, this is what I'm doing to keep my wings strong! I really wanted to create something special, but it just wasn't possible.
I created this 'package' as a way to honor and express all the things I love! Fashion, Decor and Art. It's a set of one painting and two pillows. It's something I plan to develop further and these will be the first items in my Etsy shop.....I hope.
I've also created a little make believe 'boutique', at the top of my staircase at home, with my paintings and pillows, my flowers and other creations, so any time I climb up, this is the sight waiting for me, reminding me that there's work to be done.
So, soon, my friends, soon.
Thank you so much for stopping by!
P.S. For my other friends outside of the flying family, please take a few moments to visit these lovely ladies at their blogs!
Amaranthine Violet: http://magic-gypsy.blogspot.com/
Amy Hillenbrand: http://amyhillenbrand.blogspot.com
Beatriz Peñas B.: http://beatrizbepe.blogspot.com/
Beth Cougler Blom: http://sobliss.wordpress.com/
Carmen Patti: http://carmenpattistudio.com/wordpress/
Carol Bray: http://theredpaintedcottage.blogspot.com
Christina Fajardo: http://christinafajardo.blogspot.com/
Cindy Jones Lantier: http://www.lantier.org
Connie Rawlins : http://www.dabblinginlife.blogspot.com/
Dana Brock: http://www.dzynbydana.blogspot.com
Deborah Velásquez : http://deborahvelasquez.blogspot.com
Elissa Brown: http://thefreckledarmy.blogspot.com
Hillary Courson: http://www.hillarycourson.com
Jacquie Williamson: http://www.jacquiewilliamson.blogspot.com/
Jane Paynting: http://inkspiredwings.wordpress.com
Janet Forrest: http://tatterednworn.wordpress.com/
Jennifer DeVille: http://jenniferdeville.com/blog/
Jill Lambert : http://www.jill-lambert.blogspot.com/
Julie Hamilton: http://spaark.wordpress.com
Kanchan Mahon: http://Kanchan-Mahon.blogspot.com/
Karen Claverie: http://giddyupletsride.blogspot.com
Kari DeSaulnier: http://karidesi.blogspot.com/
Kathleen Conard : http://newfromoldcreations.blogspot.com/
Kathleen McKinnon: http://harmonyschoolhouse.com/expressions-blog.html
Kathy May: http://kathymaydesigns.org
Kelley Miller: http://www.kelleymillerartworks.blogspot.com/
Kelly Corso: http://birdinatreecreations.blogspot.com/
Kelly Hoernig: http://www.kellyhoernig.blogspot.com/
Kim Hyer: http://www.apaperaddict.com/
Kris Lanae Binsfeld: http://cherishdesigns.wordpress.com
Lenore Angela: http://www.lenoreangela.blogspot.com/
Linda Barutha: http://lindabaruthadesigns.blogspot.com
Lisa Michele Products:
Liza Zeni Baker: http://lizazeni.wordpress.com/
Lynn Richards: http://alittlebluesky.blogspot.com
Lori Leissner: http://leissnerart.blogspot.com
Lori Moon: http://lorimoonstudio.blogspot.com
Mary Cottingham: http://www.barnbugstudio.blogspot.com/
Mary Sterk: http://justmarydesigns.wordpress.com
Megan Schmitt: http://www.schmittenwithwords.blogspot.com/
Melanie Douthit: www.douthitgallery.blogspot.com
Michelle Dwyer: http://www.magnetisedbylife.com/
Michelle Reynolds: http://shellsinthebush.blogspot.com/
Rachél Payne (Rae): http://collectingyourself.wordpress.com/
Rain Hannah: http://honeyandollie.com/
Rhiannon Connelly: http://www.starrybluesky.wordpress.com
Ruth-Mary Smith: http://patchworkfamilieshub.blogspot.com
Sherry Richert Belul:
Susan M. Walls-Beverly:
Teresa Cash-Czech: http://www.asmilemaker.com/
Tina Carlborg: http://www.tinachicky.blogspot.com/
Tonya Love: http://passport2creativity.com/
Ursula Smith: http://www.EasyScraps.com/blog
Zulma Cadena: http://edustory.wordpress.com/
Mary Cottingham http://www.barnbugstudio.blogspot.com